Thnx

Amazing what a hug can do to a person's emotional state. Who woulda thought that such a small gesture really could make all that much of a difference? I know I didn't say this that night, but, Thank You!
*and yes, that was meant in the most heterosexual way! ;-)*
Ciao!

Ouch, I am in pain!

Ow, is all i have to say at the moment. My head is killin me, my arm is all buggered up, and i have some loverly bruises all over my body. Lovely indeed. I am such a mess at the moment, and all i have to thank for that is some guy who ran a yield sign and hit me head on last night. Ouch...ouch...ouch...but at least i was able to walk away, considering the seriousness of it all. I was driving my Mom's car, and it is a write-off. There is no engine left. And now i am apparently off for the hospital so i can get checked out...ya know, in case there is internal bleeding, or my head is messed up (like when is it not though?) and all that jazz. Excellent, and right before halloween too...ah well. I am still up for partying i guess, i'll just take it easier than normal. Haha, i only went to one bar last night after the whole thing. Yeah that's right. I walked away from an accident and went to the bar. Actually it was exactly what i needed, i didn't want to be home alone, i wanted to be with friends, people i feel comfortable with, so to the club it was. Anyways, time to run...ciao!

Time? Where does it go?

Wow, i don't think i have ever seen so many comic books in one place at one time, i mean other than a store. Yeah, was helping a friend out last night to list all of the comics he has...was quite a site to say the least, and very time consuming. With three of us working and listing them, it still took us three hours to do. And i can't remember the last time being awake and having three hours fly by like they did last night. I got there at like 7:30 and when we were done i thought it was like 9 or 9:30...nope, it was 10:21...10:21 on the dot. So i mean, time really just went out the window, there was no concept of time last night. So with all that said, that brings me to this. What is time, and the concept of time? Is it something that really exists? or is it perhaps and entity of human imagination. Yes, we age, and so too does all living and non-living organisms on this planet. But i mean, we base our time system on the earth rotating the sun, and the moon rotating around the earth. So we have timed objects, but that still doesn't mean that time exists, per se. Wow, this is way too abstract for me to even be trying to comprehend i think. But i mean, if time were to really "exist" then if we, as humans, were to break the speed of light, as the theory goes, time would go in reverse. So if time were to really exist, then it shold be impossible to go back in time. Yet, if theoretically speaking we can go back in time, then perhaps there really is no such thing as time after all. Becuase if time were to fully exist, then while whoever was going back in time, time would be moving forward simultaneously, so it would almost be self defeating, no, not almost, it would be self-defeating. It would mean that person would be in a sort of limbo, where time, has stopped???? whaaaaa!?!?!? Ok, that was just a bit out there. It is now time to bring this self-discussion back down out of the atmosphere and ground it a bit. Well, whatever time is. I love it, and I hate it. Both with a passion. There are moments when i wish time would just fly by, and i wouldn't have to drag myself through it all, and there are moments when i wish time would really slow down, or even just stop, and that moment can live on forever. A moment lasting an eternity. Yes, i am tired of those good times where i just look at my watch and wonder where the time went. I absolutely hate it. Yet there are other instances where i look at my watch and wonder when it is all gonna end. Ah well, i guess there is a balance though in life, you can't always have the good times with out the bad times, and you can't always have the bad times without the good times. But still, it is all so absolutely frustrating! Makes me want to tear my hair out! Ah well. Take it as its given i guess. Time will go on for an eternity i guess, well, as long as there are humans around to break aging down to such a precise entity. Because without humans, is there really time? I guess a similar idea would be if a tree fell in a forest, and no one was around, would it make a sound? In my opinion, time is a purely human concept. Please, feel free to argue with me on that, but, i'm just thinking about it, and everything in me, well, almost everything within me is pointing towards the idea that time is a purely human concept. Anyways, enough of this, my had hurts, and i hope yours isn't, and if it is, i must apologize. Anyways, until next time...ciao!
*A moment to last an eternity*
Oh how glorious it is...indeed.

Don't think yer so great!

lets see what happens when i do something like this?

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Shoohotentot and Skolinkenlot

Carissa was a girl i once knew,
She had a very interesting shoe
She called an old lady a whore
and ate some mayonaisse off the door
and then she was entirely through...

Ah yes, a magnificent piece of English literature right there, definitely a classic if I do say so myself. One that will stand the test of time and rank among Pope and Thomas. Yes. So i sit here, absolutely bored out of my mind. I have watched every Foamy episode there is to watch, with no sound by the way, and have gone through all of my class notes for the past two months. So yeah. What does one do in a situation like this? Well, i will just ponder. Ponder away. Ladies and Gentleman, let the blood~letting begin!
I don't think i have enough gas in my car to get me to a gas station. Uh oh. I meant to fill up this morning on my way in too school, but see i had a mid-term and i was running late. So as a result, i now don't think i have enough gas to get me to a Petro Canada. I seriously cannot believe the cost of gas these days. I also cannot believe how broke i am at the moment. That stupid cab ride on friday night completely empited my pockets of any change, and i am not about to break into my savings...those savings are well, being saved! Grrrrr! This is one of the few times i wish i had a credit card. Cuz i know i am gonna be having a ton of money pour into my pockets come november, but until then, i am pretty much begging my parents for money. And its not like i don't owe them money already as it is. Stupid car repairs! I'm still hurting from them. And to make things so much better, the U of C is running a defecit, so that means more tuition hikes. Goody gum drops. I so cannot wait until i am out of this hell hole of a school and at one that actually looks nice and isn't driving itself into bankruptcy. Ah well, at least i have some money coming in this friday from tutoring. It actually pays surprisingly well, but then again these kids are seeing real results so that's good i guess. I think my closet needs an overhaul. Time to empty out the old and bring in the new. Which is going to be one helluva of an expensive project. I think i shall wait until boxing day. I need more gas money from my mother. I have to friggin drive everywhere, and i think i spend at least a good $60 a week just on gas. JUST ON GAS! friggin eh man...And i am not about to go rant about the oil companies either, too many of my friends have parents involved in them. Ah well. So Halloween is coming up, and i am going on a pub crawl. But i still have no idea what i am gonna go as. I don't know what i am gonna do. Hmmmm. Ooooh! Maybe i'll go as a pirate! I gots myself a pirate shot glass and maybe i can use that! Oh good! And i think i will grow out my facial har for the day! Hahaha! Ew. Or maybe just a goatee. Yeah, just a goatee.
*Shudders at thought of facial hair*
So anyways, i think i am done for the moment. I think i am gonna skip next class. History. Oh so exciting! Not. I am always so very, very bored whenever i go. But then i always feel so guilty if i ever miss a class. Explain that! Ah well. I think i am gonna make a friend quiz thingy! Always entertaining to do! Hahahahaaaa. Right, well i am now gonna go off and do that. Oh yeah, one more point...i think i would die without my cell phone. I somehow ended up with a friends cell for the weekend and i just can't imagine living without mine. But really! No one knows my home number and half the time my msn doesn't work, so it can be pretty tuff sometimes to get a hold of me. Ah well, i will just make sure i lways have mine with me. Haha, i wouldn't want it sleeping with another man! rightio. Ciao!

Egads!

Well, first off. I certainly shall have some very interesting stories for my psychiatrist this week. I just came back from watching the Grudge with some peoples, and yeah. I certainly don't like the death rattle in the movie...it is something that will likely stay with me for quite some time. Unfortunately. And in other news...Hell it appears, has frozen over. This is good news to some, however it is bad news to others. Now Satan apparently is having a ball with this, after 10,000 years of boiling people, it now seems his past time is making popsicles out of souls. One has to wonder if that would be a profitable industry. "Yes, I'll take one damnedsicle, and one tormentedklondike bar..." uh huh. Anyways. So while watching the movie i realized i forgot my oreos. I always have a box of oreos whenever i watch a horror movie, lets me know that i am still alive, and not a part of the movie. And tonight, i was really really craving my oreos. And as a result of not having any, i am now stiff as hell from being so tensed up during the movie. I hate that, ah well. What can one do? I never realized how many horror mivies actually come out, i was watching the previews, and out of the four movies previewed, three of them were horror ones. Now I mean i am not complaining, but there does come a point when the market is saturated perhaps? hmmmm? Anyways. And now for something different. How many people out there are fans of Monty Python? I mean, i love the pythons, i always have such a ball whenever i watch their movies... "Oh where ever did that fishy goooooooo..." or "Tis but a flesh wound!" or even "Behold the Holy Gourd of Jerusalem..." over the summer i held a Monty Python movie marathon, and now I am curious if it would be a popular move to reopen the stash of Monty Python, and host yet another one? I wonder if there are any takers on that one? Leave me a comment perhaps? Meh, whatev. And now i must go, the sweet world of slumber beckons me, and I shall try to remove that insistant death rattle from my head. I wonder if those other people who i saw the movie with are suffering from the same thing...Natasha? Melissa? Cameron? or am i the only crazy one here? Curse that women in the movie, well actually, she already is cursed, well I will just curse her some more. CURSES BE UPON YOU! anywho, ciao!
Oh yes, Hayley stopped on for a visit today, we had much fun munching on crumpets and drinking tea! Haha...flashbacks to grade 10...oh dear, that also means i have to put up with that wench who shall not be named, but all know who i am talking about....rightio....ciao!

WENCH! TROLLOP! BEOTCH!

YOU GOD DAMN MOTHER FUCKING BITCH! HOW DARE YOU COME BETWEEN ME AND MY FRIENDS! WHAT ARE YOU TRYING TO DO? BREAK US ALL UP? WHAT, DID YOU NOT THINK I WASN'T GOING TO FIND OUT? HOW DARE YOU. I WANT TO FUCKING BITCH-SLAP YOU RIGHT NOW. AND IF YOU COME NEAR ME, I SWEAR TO GOD THAT I WILL TEAR YOU A NEW ONE. I'VE PUT UP WITH THIS HORSE-SHIT FOR TOO FUCKING LONG, AND NOW YOU ARE GOING TO FUCKING PAY FOR ALL THE SHIT YOU PUT ME THROUGH! I CAN'T BELIEVE YOU WOULD SAY THE THINGS YOU FUCKING SAID TO HER AT TEQUILA! I CAN'T FUCKING BELIEVE IT. SO NOT ONLY WAS SHE PISSED OUT OF HER MIND AT ME, BUT SHE WAS ALSO PISSED OUT OF HER MIND AT CAMERON, AND NATASHA! DID YOU NOT THINK WE WOULDN'T TALK? WELL GUESS WHAT WENCH, WE DO, WE'VE KNOWN EACHOTHER SINCE GRADE SIX, AND WE ARE BOTH NOT ABOUT TO LET SOMETHING LIKE THIS COME BETWEEN US. SOMETHING THAT YOU FUCKING CREATED! I CAN'T BELIEVE THE LIES THAT COME OUT OF YOUR MOUTH. OTHERS WARNED ME ABOUT YOU, BUT I DIDN'T WANT TO BELIEVE THEM. WELL I GUESS I SHOULD HAVE HEEDED THEIR WARNINGS AS ALL YOU ENDED UP DOING WAS JUST KICKING ME IN THE ASS IN THE END. I GAVE YOU SO MANY FUCKING CHANCES, BUT THIS TIME YOU CROSSED THE LINE. AS SOON AS ANYONE TRIES TO COME BETWEEN ME AND MY FRIENDS, THEY ARE FUCKING DONE! SO, BY THE WAY, YOUR TALK WITH ANDREA DIDN'T GO OVER TOO WELL, CUZ NOW SHE WANTS NOTHING TO FUCKING DO WITH YOU! FIRST IMPRESSIONS ARE LASTING IMPRESSIONS! AND YOU FUCKED YOURSELF OVER WITH YOU. YOU ARE RANKED DOWN WITH HER EX-BOYFRIEND WHO SHE FUCKING HATES WITH A PASSION. AND THE FACT YOU ARE RANKED DOWN WITH HIM IN HER BOOKS SAYS ALOT. SHE LIKED YOU AT FIRST, BUT THEN WHEN SHE REALIZED THAT EVERY FUCKING THING YOU SAID TO HER WAS A FUCKING LIE! HA! CONGRATULATIONS, I DON'T THINK I'VE EVER SEEN HER HATE SOMEONE SO BADLY SO FAST. SO YES, WELL DONE. I AM NOT QUITE SURE WHAT YOUR GOAL WAS AT ALL, BUT WHATEVER IT WAS, I HOPE IT INVOLVED YOU BEING THE CENTRE OF EVERYONES HATRED AROUND YOU, AND LOSING WHAT LITTLE REMAINING FRIENDS YOU HAD. AND NOW I AM FUCKING DONE WITH YOU. SO GOODBYE YOU MOTHER FUCKING LYING BITCH! NOW, PLEASE DO ME A FAVOUR A FUCK OFF! FOR GOOD! ciao!

IT'S PAAAAAAY DAAAAAAAY!

Today is going so well so far! I am so excited for tonight its not even funny! The sun is shining outside, the first time in at least a week and it is glorious, there is a slight breeze, and it is so bright cuz of all the snow on the ground! And it was Bonnie's birthday last night, i tried calling her, but she was at a play. Ah well. HAYLEY IS BACK IN TOWN THIS WEEKEND! YIPEEEEEE! I AM SO EXCITED TO SEE HER! And it's Andrea's 18th today, i took her out last night to her first bar and it was fun, however i was DD, so it wasn't nearly as fun as it could have been. But tonight, since its payday i have drink money! So i am going to be pissed out of my mind. Yeah for Tequila! Yeah for dancing! Yeah for Alcohol! I am so excited! Oh, and I am bringing a camera tonight! Yeah me! But anyways, what else...I bought another book today, Dan Brown's "Angels and Demons", already on chapter 7 and it is an excellent read indeed. Hmmm...Natasha lended me "Life of Pi" so i am looking forward to starting that book. Cameron asked me to come and help him with his comics and packing them up for the move, should be interesting to go through all 8,000 of them...i think that's how many he has. Shaping up to be another busy weekend, Luke invited me to his house party, i don't really want to go but i just might make an appearance. Got some invitations to something going on at the Mynt this sunday, i don't know if i'll go though i'll see how i'm feeling that night. Oh, i want to go see that new movie, the Grudge, looks intriguing.
My cat is really acting weird these days. I mean she was odd to start out with as a kitten, but now she is just plain nuts. She was stalking my sock lying on my room floor the other day, that was entertaining, but slightly concerning at the same time. And then last night she was running around upstairs for most of the night, back and forth, back and forth. And right now she is standing behind the chair across from me, her ears a folded flat back against her head and her eyes are the widest i've seen them in a long time. And al she is doing is just staring at me. Am I really that much of a mess today? And now she is ducking up and down behind the chair. What an odd creature to say the least. I am looking forward to halloween next weekend, but i am still not sure what i want to be. I have a few ideas, but time is running out.
I love my toque, like it is warm and it served me well last winter, but i just took it off from coming back from outside and my hair is flat to my head and its like weird. Whenever i wear that toque with this kinda hair length, my hair always goes really funny. So at the mall today some guy was wearing a shirt that said Gay and Proud. I thought nothing of it, but seriously, do you need to wear that on the front of your shirt? I mean you may be rpoud, but pushing it in peoples faces is a bit too far to me. Ah well, whatever floats yer boat i guess.
Oh, cat just jumped off chair, hissed at me and ran out of the room. I wonder if i should be worried about her psychological state of mind. I wonder when the next full moon is? Perhaps that has something to do with her activities of late. Ok, and i ran out of things to say. Wow, this has certainly been a most random post. I can't remember the last time i wrote a something like this on my blog. Anyways, time to go out and just enjoy the sun while it is out. Ciao!

*Shakes Fist*

Damn Ice! Damn Mid-terms! Damn Dog! Damn Cat! Damn Books! Damn Car! Damn Work! Damn Pinebrook! Damn Nostalgia! Damn Fatigue! Damn Craig! Damn Barb! Damn Jason! Damn Toque! Damn Age-restrictions! Damn TV! Damn Radio! Damn Internet! Damn Expenses! Damn Term-papers! Damn Ignorance! Damn People! Damn Families! Damn Social-acceptance! Damn World! Damn Screen doors! Damn False advertisements! Damn Eraserless Pencils! Damn my Innocence! Damn Eyes! Damn Brtiney Spears! Damn Brad Pitt (only because he's so gorgeous!) Damn Writers Block! Damn Me! Damn You! I BLAME YOU! ciao!
Haha...that felt great! SHOOHOTENTOT AND SKOLINKINLOT!

Something Good...

There really is nothing more heartwarming then to watch two people fall head over heels for eachother. Really it is something. The laughter, the giggles, the whipsering of sweet nothings. The endless smiles, that sparkle in the eyes. Tis something special. But then again that drags up the question of why I don't go out and find a lady for myself. I mean I look at those two and i feel a twinge of envy. To have something special with someone else. The truth is, I really do not want to be seeing anyone at this point in time. I dated what, two people in high school? The longest one lasted for five months, well, six technically but it was on and off that last month. I am just not big into relationships i guess. I mean there are times when i wish that i could have someone, that someone in my own life. But most of the time i realize that i am not ready. I want to be able to go off and leave this place without ever having to hurt someone. I don't know how much longer i will stay here for. That urge to leave is growing stronger as each week passes on. And my final destination also changes: London, Paris, Rome, Dubai, Abu Dhabi, Tokyo, St. Petersburg, Rio de Janerio, Grand Cayman, Monte Carlo, Montreal, Sydney, Los Angeles, New York. So i mean i am a globe-trotter and it will only be a matter of time before i pack up and leave. So i mean, i am not quite sure of anyone that i have ever met, or will likely meet that would be willing to follow me to the ends of the Earth. Literally. I dunno. My mother bugs me about not dating anyone, my friends constantly bring it up. I mean, do i have crushes? Yes. But there are times when I don't have any crushes at all. And right now I am slipping into one of those times where I am not even interested in looking for anyone. I was really alone this past summer, and i was actively looking for someone. But now just look at me. I am not looking for anyone at all. Does it bother me? Hmmm, no. Just reaffirms the idea that I will have nothing to leave behind here. Do i think it would be fun to have a girlfriend? Yes it would, it would make it easier to find a dance partner when at the club, but i mean, i have a good enough time when i go that i really don't need anyone at all. Do i want to mess around with anyone? Mmmmmm, no. I mean there have been a number of opprotunites that have presented themselves where I coud have taken up the offer, but I say no to them. Ah well. I mean there are times when i want to mess around, but those come and go quite quickly. But do i think that having a girlfriend is a good thing? Yes it is. For some people they are a very good thing, a very heathy thing for them. But to me. I find that i am tied down. But alas, that is just me. Meh, maybe i will slow down eventually and will look for someone, but until then, no. No one please. Unless of course you completely knock my socks off or something and I go through an epiphany. But otherwise, I am content. I am happy with the way my life is right now. And i don't see my life improving at all if i were to bring someone seriously into it. So i don't see the point of it all in the end. Now please excuse me as I go off and listen to yet another love poem in English *pukes*. Riiiiight. Ciao!

Pause for thought

How in Hell's name does one manage to lock themselves out of their house completely naked and end up lying in some random shrubbery on the side of their house?

Bugger Off! Seriously!

I am sick and tired of people dictating to me on how i should live my life. Well, you know what i have to say to you? Fuck off. It's my life and i shall live it whichever way i choose to. I know you may not approve of what i do, but since when do i need anyones approval on what i should do? Yes, i respect your opinion of the matter, but once you start to even try and infringe upon my freedom, my life, oh, stay away for I will be out for blood. You say that i am on the road to hell. Right. And i keep forgetting that you can walk on water. You honestly are no better. So the day that you can walk on water perhaps then i will listen to what you have to say. But until then, remove the plank from your own eye before you try to take the sliver out of my eye. Capiche? I reall do not want to hear about how righteous you are, and how i am going to fry in hell. Yes i realize that there are certain rules i have to follow. But think about this...have i murdered, raped, or stolen anything? I think not. Have i denounced God as just a figment of human imagination? Uhmmmm...nope. So i mean it is not like i have turned my back on my beliefs and the dogma set out by human interpretation. Oh, and since when has shooting little bb's at other people, who willingly take it, become a sin? Hmmm? If something seems strange and out there to you it doesn't automatically make it a sin ya know! Honestly, I can't believe I put up with so much ignorance from people for so long. You people seriously need to grow up and open your eyes to see what this world is really like. And who really gives a flying fuck if I go to some kink night eh? It is all in good fun, shits and giggles is the way i look at it. Seriously, calm down. So here is a compromise. You stay out of my life, and i shall stay out of yours. For Good. I want nothing to do with you. I do not want to even see you. Let alone hear from you. So now, as a final note good bye...
Fuck Off!
Ciao!
btw...Greed and Pride are on that same list of sins as Drinking and Debauchery is...cheerio!

Confession time (Uh oh)

Ok. Confession time. I have a serious issue differentiating between acquaintances and friends. When does someone become a friend to someone else? I mean I consider most people I know my friend, I don’t really have that many acquaintances, just friends really. And I have my friends, my good friends, and my best friends. Just to make it to good friend is tough enough for most people, but to have a best friend is something special. Something very special indeed. But I mean, since almost all of my friends left for out of town universities and colleges I have been looking for a new group of friends, new people to spend time with. I think I have found this group. I get along really well with most of them and all that. But this is where my issue arises. When I am called up and invited out somewhere, is that these people being my friends, or are they just being nice to me? Like seriously, I am very suspicious of some of these peoples’ intentions. Not in a bad way, but I just don’t feel worthy to be hanging out with them. Seriously, just think about it. Me! Who would ever want to hang out with me? I am such a dork it’s not even funny. Yet they want to spend time with me. I really cannot answer this myself. But I mean, perhaps some of this uneasiness is due to the fact that I was welcomed in so easily, and rose through the “ranks” of people and went literally straight to the top of this “social ladder” I just find it very difficult to understand. But I mean I consider some people very good friends of mine, yet I am constantly wondering if they think about me in the same light. It just scares me I think. I mean some of the things I’ve seen and heard, the fact that I have actually become somewhat of a confidant to some people I just find it odd. Just how fast we became friends and clicked. Is it because we honestly had that much in common and just enjoy each others company? Or are they just being nice, and making sure not to leave me out. I guess I could look at it this way, that if I wasn’t a friend of theirs and all that jazz then I wouldn’t be invited out as often as I am and to be one of the very few to hang out together within this group. And I mean this idea, this suspicion actually does rub off to when I am hanging out with these people. I mean I seriously push them away and turn down offers that they make to me quite often. Or maybe it just all boils down to the fact that I still don’t feel fully comfortable in my own skin. Perhaps that is the root problem here. A very good friend of mine pointed that fact out to me, the fact that maybe I m not fully comfortable within my own skin. Is it really that obvious? The fact that he could say that obviously means I am giving off some kinda vibe. Hmmm. I don’t know. All I do know is that I enjoy the people I hang out with, I enjoy the time we all spend together, and I really enjoy the memories we have made. Ai, so maybe I should just not be so paranoid about this matter and just go with the flow. I already do just go with the flow, but when it comes to emotions and feelings I find it very hard to open up to anyone about them and open up to myself about them. But meh. I have recognized a flaw within myself, and the fact that I have acknowledged it to myself, perhaps I will work and correct this issue within myself. Ah well, I will see where all this goes. I just don’t want to lose these people because of my uneasiness. Hmph. And that is enough. Ciao!

Whatever happened to Fay Wray?

There comes a time when every story must come to an end, no matter how legendary it has become. Everyone will recognize and know when this happens, yet few will actually acknolwedge that it has happened and carry on and move on. Some will live in denial, hoping, just hoping that there is a chance that the story may add another chapter to itself, that it may just carry on, even if only in the slightest degree. I feel sorry for those people. Yet i also feel sorry for myself. To recognize and know that it is coming, the end is near. It actually is quite painful and emotions really do run rampant. It was tough enough to come in at the end of a story, but having been brought into it so fully it does and will hurt when it comes to an end. People will scatter like the leaves do in a strong breeze. We will all go our own seperate ways and we will lose contact with eachother. The force, that tree, that was keeping us together is dying. Fall has arrived and the tree is shedding its leaves. There will be a few of us who will stay friends, but for the majority it will be the end of knowing eachother. For every end there is a new beginning. That is what is happening here. I already see the roots of a new tree taking hold in the ground. And it seems that this tree will be a strong one. But it will take a lot of effort from all sides in order for this one to be a strong healthy one. Hopefully it will last for a long time, I hope so. I really like the people I've come to know in the past few weeks. I really do want to see where all this will go. But only time will tell. Anyways. I am done with my musings for the afternoon. So i bid all of you a nice day, and ciao!

What a weekend

Wow, what a weekend. I don't think i could have possibly accomplished any more than i did during this time. I am actually gonna write about what i did this weekend. Wow, that certainly is a different approach than usual. Aha! Meh, its good to switch things up a bit every now and then. So lets see, Friday...went to school, twas great fun. Had a midterm and i think i nailed it, excellent! Went out that night to some place...oh yeah moxies. Went to the Moxies lounge with a bunch of people was great fun. And some people certainly enjoyed themselves there. Then on saturday, uhm...uhm...went out for coffee with Amber, i only meant to stay for like an hour, well, before i knew it two and a half hours had passed. Wow i never knew we had that much catching up to do. And then when i got home i was out almost immediately again as I went with my parents to go look at the condo they are seriously thinking about buying for me. I mean they put down the sold dot on the one they want already. Excellent! Went to Costco, now that was exciting, found out that I am off for Ottawa at the end of November as my Dad is getting yet another medal. And now that means i have to put up with politicans again. I really don't like Adrienne Clarkson all that much, her make-up is so caked up on her, i'm surprised she doesn't crack when going into the sunlight. And then saturday night i got absolutely shit-faced to put in nicely. I drank sooo much vodka, went through a good third of a 2-6 by myself, i think i had more but i don't really recall. Went to my apartment, details will emerge in the other blog when i find the time. Crashed at Cameron's, woke up the next morning drove Melissa home...went home myself. Had to deal with people I really don't like. Wanted to get out of the house so badly. So i just sat in front of the TV for most of the day and went and cleaned my room. Purged it of all junk and reorganized all my posters yet again. Turkey dinner was excellent. Ms. Murphy came over so that was fun. I really shall miss her when she leaves for Cyrpus. Hey, gives me a reason to go to the mediterranean! Hmmmm...perhaps i will go next winter...always a thought. I loved the stuffing this year, and it did a fabulous job of stuffing me. After dinner went off to Tequila. Two Words: FOAM PARTY! it was so gross, yet the funness of it all outweighed the grossness of it all. However the night got interesting when I became the ears for someone as they ranted about someone else. Ah well, added an interesting twist to the evening. Crashed at Cameron's. Left car keys and cell in Dave's car, created quite a headache for some people trying to track them down. Really must buy them a case of beer for that. MGD it shall be. Went home, had to deal with house guests yet again. One of them cracked my Mom's really really big fountain in the front hall. So now it will be filled with plants instead of water from now on. Had a really yummy left over turkey dinner. Talked with my Mother and Grandmother for a bit had a grand time with them. Got twenty dollars from my Grandma cuz i got over 65% in my Math...Yay Me! And then i went and worked on an essay. I was really in the groove as I punched out a 6 page essay on Religion and Death in the Medieval Ages based on Literature from that time period in two hours. Go Team! Went downstairs to my room, purged some more of it and found my Mont Blanc pen and got it working again. Except i probably killed off a forest using as much paper as i did to get the ink flowing properly. Fountain pens are so finicky. Ah well. And after that I decided to go to bed. Twas heavenly. And now i am stuck at school. Studying and wasting away my life. I have some phone calls to make, but when i decide to do them, i do not know. Probably soon as they are in regards to tonight. Humph. And why i told the world about my weekend. I don't know...but hey, tis my blog and i shall do what i wants to do. Rightio, i am off to make those phone calls. Ciao!

Pause for thought...

My God, this is one of those times where i just sit back, look around and ponder aloud "How in hells name did that happen?"

The wonders of coffee shops

What is it about coffee shops? Honestly think about. Where have some of the most simulating conversations you have ever had with someone occured? I can almost guarantee most would say in a coffee shop...or the bar. Both are worlds of philosphy, no matter how, uhm, askewed one is. In the 1700's coffee shops were outlawed in London, England. The reason? They were a hotbed of radical ideas and the birthplace of many political philosophies that remain with us to this day. Perhaps it is the caffeine in a cup of coffee, or perhaps it is the overall atmosphere and feel of the place that leads people to discuss what they, well, discuss. I personally love going to coffee shops, whether it be alone or with friends. I prefer to be with someone, and usually i only go with one other person. Just to have some face time with them and discuss some of lifes greatest mysteries and which actress is better looking. I mean where else would one get into a conversation like that? Passions can erupt, emotions are brought to the fore-front of things we are discussing what is important and critical in our lives. It is a fascinating thing indeed. I dunno. Calgary really isn't the best place for coffee shops, it is only mega corporation chains 9/10's of the time. The best places for a cup of coffee are the old world cities. Paris, London, Montreal, or Rome. New York is also a good place, but generally life is so fast paced there that it really isn't the best place. Yes coffee hosue conversations are by far some of the most lively ones to occur. If one were to go to a nation that has just recently become a democracy the debates there are firey hot and are an amazing thing to watch. The participants are so passionate about it. Oh tis something amazing. There is an attempt to rehash these kind of ideas and passionate debates in coffee shops here in North America where we take our democracy for granted. I think it is a marvelous idea. This program, or experiement is called conversation café. It sounds interesting, but i mean i don't think i woukd attend as i don't need anyone to moderate my conversations or get me going. But then again it is a way to meet and be introduced to complete strangers and hear what they have to say about things. It sounds fascinating, yet i don't know if i would attend. Ah well. See there we go, the apathy of us North Americans. Something sounds interesting, yet we still do not attend. Wow, i am really not helping out. So maybe i will drop in and see what its about. Meh. When was the last time i trully got fired up and passionate about something? Hmmm...oh yeah, sunday night. Haha, that's great. And i have nothing more to say about this, and so, i shall be off. Ciao.

I have nothing to say except

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And I said what about Breakfast at Tiffany's?

I love memories, and thinking back on memories i have made. And trust me, there are many grand grand memories that i have. And it seems that almost every week right now I am making at least one that will last me a lifetime. Which I think is pretty good. That is one way I know that i am making the most out of my life. The only thing is with thinking back on memories, is that they can consume you. They can eat you alive. That is the only drawback with memories though. But i mean when I am having a down day, i like to think back on all the good times i have had with friends, and there are many. I mean it is kinda like affirmation but at the same time it is good to know that no one can ever take those moments away from me. I dunno, with life changing right now the way it is, I am glad that i have the many memories to look back on. All the stories to laugh about. I have a tendency to just burst out laughing for no apparent reason and at the most random of times, and many people ask what i am laughing at. I usually answer with, oh nothing in particular, but the truth is I am laughing at some story or memory that has popped into my head. Haha, tis great. That scenario results in two great things, number one: Confusion of the other party, and number two: my spirits are lifted up. It is amazing how other people can have such an effect on me. I mean like not change wise, but spirit wise. Some people i know just have the ability to be able to cheer me up with just a smile or laugh or comment, while others no matter what they do can never get a grin out of me. And another thing people seem to ask quite often of me is where they rank in my standings, i still haven't figured out why this is of any relevance cuz if you are a friend of mine, then i shall stick by yer side until the end of time, or until you tell me to fcuk off, what ever one comes first. But i mean it is quite easy to figure out without me even saying anything. If you can get a smile or laugh out of me when i am having a bad day (which is pretty rare, but still occurs on occasion) then you know you are definetly a very good friend. But then again friendships are a two way street as the old saying goes. It takes both parties to make a friendship work. So i mean i will not put all the effort into making a friendship occur and if that seems to be the case, then i will drop that friendship like a sack of mouldy potatoes. Ha. And another way to know how good of a friend one is, is by the amount of information i tell you. Becuase something like that involves a certain amount of trust in the other person. And that is something that takes a long time for me to do...to trust someone. As most people know everyone has been stabbed in the back before, i have unfortunately had that misfortune, and all it takes is just once and then one's life is irrevocably changed forever. Ah well. If there is one thing I hope we can take with us into our next life, I hope that is the ability to recongize and remember our friends of this lifetime. And hte memories i have made. You never know when you are making a memory, so therefore make each moment count. That is one of the major philosphies of my life. To make it count. And trust me, I have carpe'd the snot out of this diem. Haha! i don't think i could make each moment count more than i am already doing. And now, thank you to all of you who have helped me to make each moment count. To helping make the memories i have made possible. Thank you to all of you for being my friend. I know i may not seem to appreciate it, but trust me, I appreciate it more than you will ever know. Life is too short to pass up on new moments and memories. Someone once asked me why i was so desperate to get out of my house on a thursday night, and the answer was because i had a burning desire to live life, and so i went out and enjoyed my life for what it was worth. Now...here i come to a part that i think needs to be listed. Here is to star-schmucks coffee, Whipped Cream and a steamed up van. To Boston PIzza and the friday night escapades. To the trio, the sheriff, and lady of the pickles. To lilo and stitch, to boo and kitty. To monty python, midnight walks, and star gazing in Belize. To the Roadhouse, and Detours, and Tequila and Outlaws. Ah yes, those moments listed back there, those are some of the greatest times I have ever had. If you know what I am talking about, then a big shout of thanks goes out to you. And now, a special shout out to those people in my life who have helped to make my life more amazing than i ever thought it could be. To the baroness, the duchess, the queen of england and the marquis du Lac. To the sheriff, and lilo, foo and boo and pin. To batman (its been great!) and cucumber, devinah, and Skywalker. Thank you to all, it has been grand. And now it is time for me to go and bid adieu to you and you and you. Life goes on, and more memories are to be made, but for now, i am exhausted and must go off to the world of unconciousness. Good night, God Speed, and Ciao!

My foot is asleep!

Wow, i thought i was awake, i guess i'm not. Too early to be up at this ungodly hour. Ack. So. I feel indifferent right now, so I think i will just ramble on about nothing in particular. Saw Bif Naked last night, twas excellent indeed. Found a new musician to listen too as well. Ha! Musician, i said musician, usually i say artist except someone got after me for that. Whatever. So anyways, this new artist i found, his name is Todd Kerns. Awesome. Awesome music. Bought his cd and a poster. Which brings me to this. Why do we look up to people? Do we look up to them because we are envious of them perhaps? I think so, i know i was damn right jealous of Todd becuase of his mastery of the guitar and the way he can work an audience. But i mean, would I want to live his life? Hells no, which means I am envious only becuase of the talent he has with playing the guitar. That is one instrument i wish i had learned to play. I played just about every other instrument, but never the guitar. Odd. Ah well. I think I will take my frustration out on the drumset at home when i'm done with Academia for the day. Give myself a wicked headache, hock myself up on tylenol and then go out and party tonight. Heheheeeee. I love my life, it is so awesome. In fact, one of my friends is turning it into a play! I read some of it last night and it seems pretty good. I hope she'll expand on it, and the thing is though that this is a uni project as well! I feel so loved! I hope she gets a good mark on it. Anyways. So roll models. Half the time roll models in my life are not Rock Gods or Hollywood superstars, i really don't envy their lives at all, too messed up for my liking. Most of the time the people who I look up to are in my life. And these individuals know who they are cause i tell them. Different people for different reasons. One person because of the courage he has to stand up to society, and his family, and declare who he is. Another for being so true to herself. And yet another for the talent he has for sports. And another for the ability she has to make anyone laugh, no matter how bad of a day they are having. And another for having the strength to carry on despite the adversities that have befallen her. And another for fighting for what was right and changing it not only for himself, but for all others who end up in his situation. So many people to admire and look up too. Now, I wonder if I am anyones roll model. Meh, I don't really care. I mean I've had people try and follow me and what i do, but i mean they were just groupies and i ditched them like a sack of mouldy potatoes. As much fun as it was to literally have my own fan club, it really wasn't cool. There are so many good people in my life that have been so accomadating and good to me. I think I need to start thanking people more. I need to set aside more time in order to go out with people for a cup of coffee or lunch. I love lunch time chats, always so light hearted. Either that or Boston Pizza! Chocoalate milk anyone? Yum, such a good drink. Anyways i am done my ponderings for the day. My foot has woken up so i guess i might go wander aimlessly around. Such a brisk fall day. I love it. Too bad the leaves are going though, i wish they stayed their brilliant colours a little bit longer. Ah well. At least we are having a nice Indian Summer. Rightio, I am off. Ciao!