The Dating Game

Alright, and as I mentioned in my last entry, there are people crushing on me, and i am not responding to them...well, there are reasons why.
I tend to fee caged in whenever i am in a relationship with anyone. I feel as though I can't go out with whomever i want to whenever i want to. Which is a big thing. I want to be able to do my thing and not have to worry about anyone else. So yes, i am looking out solely for number one here. And i feel that if i just dated someone cuz i had a crush on them and all that, just i would likely get overly bored with them as soon as i met someone else. Which is not fair to either parties involved. I mean, yes i have crushes, but I doubt I would ever go out with any of them. On another note, I want to live life my way, and I don't want anyone to try and tame me or calm me down. Yeah, I know I am not much of a wild child to begin with, but the shit i pull sometimes would most likely have me in dumpsville so fast so it just isn't worth my time. I mean, i like having the challenge of trying to find someone to buy me a drink at the bar, and sometimes that means putting out a certain amount, which some people would likely find uncomfortable especially if i was supposed to be their boyfriend blah blah blah.
But, perhaps the thing keeping me away right now, is that I am looking for someone who will blow me off my feet. Literally, i am looking for someone that just strikes me as being trully unique and has a lot in common with me. And unfortunately i think i am looking for perfection when i date someone, not in their looks, but in their personality. I am looking for someone exactly like me, someone who can put on a smile no matter what shit is going on in their life. Someone that talks and listens. Someone that has a great taste in music...and yeah, being attractive to me at least is a big thing too. So am I just chasing a fruitless dream? Oh i hope not, cuz that would suck big time. Ah well...then again I am far far too shy when it comes to dating people also, which is another obstacle...ah well. there, now i threw out what someof my issues are with dating...oh wait, one last thing...i am not ready to settle down which is another thing. But whatever. I am done. If it makes sense, great, if not...oh well, makes sense to me. And as I said, I am looking out for number one. Wow I am in a really selfish, self-centred prickish mood today....great...er, i am at least coming across as one. Fine. Most days i am not out soleyl for myself, but on some issues, i am, like this one. There, not self centered anymore. And, Done. Ciao.